Suddenly as if some great harmonic convergence changed my energy or some crazy friend (Marsha Crazy Horse) sensed something within me and gave me a push. Regardless of how or why this is happening, I think I just may be ready. Ready for what, you may be asking? Ready to start dating. Holy shit, I actually said it/wrote it and the more I say it, the more I'm sure.
I'm pretty sure I have Crazy Horse to thank for this. Her Tucson visit was finished and I told her I'd pick her up and spend Sunday afternoon with her and get her to the train station that evening. She told me about a man named "L" she met and then shocked the hell out of me when she said she told him about me. What the hell? Marsha and I made our way to Hotel Congress and sat outside to have a drink and a bite to eat. She asked if I wanted L to come meet us and hang out. Uhhhh, no. A little time passed and pretty soon Marsha laughed and held up her phone. She had asked him to send a selfie! Crap, Marsha ~ what are you doing?
After a bit we got up to go across the street to hang out at Maynard's at the train station and as we walked away from our table, this tall, handsome YOUNGER man walked in and it was L. Gulp. Introductions were made and we went across the street and in to Maynard's where L bought us both a glass of wine. Marsha's 7:00pm train turned in to an 8:45pm train so over the next couple of hours, a mutual attraction developed between L and I. We finally got Marsha on her train and he turned and asked if I'd like to go have a drink with him. It felt completely natural and right although I was freaking out a little inside when I said yes. We found a spot nearby and sat out on the patio where we talked, laughed and found our commonalities over the next hour or so. I ended it innocently enough but we left the door open to possibly see each other next time he is in Tucson (he travels for his job). He's already texted me and truth be told, I've got him on my mind.
Oddly enough this same week I was approached by a man at work who asked if I'd like to go out for a drink or dinner sometime. A brief moment of panic hit me but I regained my composure without him sensing my internal debate and said sure, that would be nice. No plans were made at that moment but we agreed that we'd talk and see what works for us. I don't really know this man but there's no harm in getting out there and exploring this new world. I have to relearn so many things that I've lost over the last 30+ years; how to date, how to let someone know I'm not interested after a date or two and more importantly how to let someone know that I AM interested. Are there lessons I can take or a book I can read?!
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