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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Always Believe in the Good

Always believe that something wonderful is about to happen.

I wasn't sure but to be honest, I was hopeful. After meeting L about two months ago, I was very interested but not exactly confident that I'd truly see him again. We'd text a bit here and there until one night he asked if we could Skype. Spending that hour basically face to face talking to each other kind of changed things and our texts became a little more frequent. Plans were made to see each other when he came back to Tucson for Christmas.

When I went to Hawaii in mid-December, L (Leroy....but for my blogging purposes he'll be "L") maintained contact and I sent him a few pictures of my island fun. I was especially touched when I turned my phone on after landing in Phoenix to head home and found a really nice text checking in to make sure my flight had arrived and I was safe.

Well the time finally came for L to be in Tucson to see his family here and in Phoenix. We met for lunch and truth be told, I can't remember feeling so comfortable and relaxed around a man. Conversation just flowed exactly as it did that very first night. Any fears or trepidation I may have had prior to our lunch meeting quickly flew out the window.

Well, L is back to his traveling job now but out of the past eight days, seven were spent with him either here in Tucson or in Phoenix. Everything about this feels natural and right and it's kind of hard to explain. So far, family and friends have been supportive; friends more so but I believe that to be normal. My girls are being supportive to a degree but I think they worry that I'll get hurt. I tell them I'm a big girl and if things should turn and I get hurt, so be it. I can take it. My son...well, my son doesn't really express much about matters of the heart. He knows I'm dating and I think that is enough for him.

Always a believer in signs and being open to signals and messages from Al, I've received a few regarding L. The first was when I was with L in Phoenix and he asked me to text him the pictures I'd taken from the night before when we were at a comedy club. I sent him the pics and looked at my phone afterwards to make sure the text went through and I saw that it was sent at 11:11. Feels like a little nod from Al.

Driving home from Phoenix Monday morning after having breakfast with L, his sister & her baby and L's cousin, I was approaching Picacho Peak and smiled as I saw the sign for Rooster Cogburn's Ostrich Farm because L had taken me there just two days earlier and we had a blast feeding all the animals and birds. So at the exact moment that I was driving on I-10 past Rooster's place, the song "Bad, Bad Leroy Brown" came on the radio. C'mon. What are the chances? I haven't heard that song in 20 years and it plays as I'm looking at the place we'd just been two days before, the place he always tries to go to when he's in the area? That's not a little nod from Al. That's a pat on the back, a fist bump, an "I approve", and a "Just be happy, Kathy" from beyond.