What a weird and wonderful world we live in. It knocks you down, drags you around and sometimes even leaves you for dead. But just then as you’re lying there broken beyond belief you see it. It might be there in the words of another, it might be there in a glimpse of nature or it might be there when you close your eyes. But it’s there. A glimmer, a light and slowly a force. That force that moves us along and brings us back to life.
2011 was somewhat of a reflective year for me. After shuttering up the windows to ME in 2010 I opened them wide in 2011 and allowed myself to experience the grief and loss, usually privately but on occasion much more publicly. I’d like to say I’m done with it but I know that it’s become a part of who I am and makes me the person I am today. I wouldn’t wish this loss on anyone but I have learned to embrace every moment in my life and learn from it, if not grow from it.
I’m excited for what this new year will bring. My family will grow with the birth of my third grandchild, the first boy. Each year, each moment and each experience in my own children’s lives change them forever and a certain acceptance of that change has formed within us all. We’re all older and wiser but still full of life with so much ahead of us. I can’t wait to see how I change and grow this coming year.
Yep, the shutters came off and the windows went wide in 2011. Pardon the metaphor but the screens are up now for 2012. The screens let out the old and stale but gently filter in the fresh and new. I’m ready for it. I’m ready for the next chapter of my life. Bring it on 2012!!!
Kathy, as usual, your words give me hope - and courage. Thank you.
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